*Some of you may know that we are in the process of adopting a 3 yr old with special needs from an orphanage in Eastern Europe. We have been in the process of his adoption since March 2017, and are hoping to bring him home in April or May 2018.  Because it is part of the struggle and joy in my life, I am going to start posting thoughts and updates every once in a while .* Dearest Little Man M, You don’t know me, but I’m your mother.  Or I will be soon.  I already feel like your mom
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  Hello internet world. It’s been a while. I haven’t written a blog post in well over two years.  I feel like life has beaten me down a bit.  Or maybe more than a bit. And I feel like I’m past the shock of it all and kind of just barely starting to notice where things are broken and sore.  I have had the thought many times that I should start writing again.  And then I remember that there are thousands of people who write.  And thousands of people who are more qualified, or more intelligent, or more witty or
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So today would have been my 5 year wedding anniversary. It would have been, if I hadn’t decided that divorce was my best option.  If my life hadn’t been turned upside down.  If everything was going according to plan.  Divorce was never in my plan. So weird. And so sad. I was sitting at lunch and over the speakers a song started playing. It happened to be the song Ex and I danced our first dance to at our wedding. The Universe has exquisite timing. I sat and listened to the song, and pondered the irony of hearing it on
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Self esteem is something that ebbs and flows for me.  Some days it’s overflowing, others my self esteem bucket is empty.  Years ago on my way to work, a total stranger taught me a lesson I will never forget. I was sitting at a red light, when a movement on the sidewalk a short way ahead of me caught my attention. My eyes landed on a woman, probably in her early sixties. She was a little soft and saggy, she was jiggling in places most of us women don’t want to jiggle and she was wearing only a sports bra,
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I believe in prayer.  I believe in a God who answers prayer.  I believe in a God who wants His children to be happy, to live in peace both in the world at large and within the walls of their own homes.  I believe in a God who does not like to see His children suffer. And yet there is suffering at every turn. I grew up in an active religious family.  We went to our LDS church every Sunday.  We prayed and read scriptures at home during the week.  Scriptures that were full of stories of faith, and miracles,
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